I Will Be A Wonderful Mother

I recently found this on the Internet while researching failed IVF cycles.  I just happened to stumble across it and have not been able to keep myself from constantly going back to read it again and again - it helps me to smile when right now all I feel is despair and hurt.

I Will Be A Wonderful Mother

Author Unknown

 

There are women who become mothers without effort,

without thought,

without patience or loss,

and though they are good mothers and love their children,

I know that I will be better.

 

I will be better not because of genetics or money or because I have read more books,

but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.

 

I have longed and waited.

 

I have cried and prayed.

 

I have endured and planned over and over again.

 

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.

 

I will notice everything about my child.

 

I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover.

 

I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

 

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream.

 

My dream will be crying for me.

 

I count myself lucky in this sense; God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child.

 

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.

 

I will be a better mother for all I have endured.

 

Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.

 

 

Now, cue the tears...