Wednesday, March 20, 2013

What I Learned Yesterday...

1.  My medical records from my local RE made their way to Colorado and are ready for Dr. S to review.  Yay!  (Dr. S has my records up through my second failed IVF when we had our phone consult.  Since 6+ months have passed since then, I had to get my more recent records out there.)

2.  The fax machine at my GYN's office has been 'having problems' and they can't seem to find my faxed request to have my pathology report from my last exam sent to CCRM.  Annoying.

3.  My local RE gave up on me.  Well, at least that's what I think.  I do still love her, but she obviously heard I had requested that my records be sent to CCRM.  I called yesterday and left a message for her to call me back (I want to get her formal recommendation on a suggested next step for me so that I can let Dr. S know next month when we're at the ODWU).  When she called me, she asked "how can I help you, Aubrey?"  I felt like screaming "YOU CAN HELP ME BY GIVING ME YOUR RECOMMENDATION AS TO WHAT I SHOULD DO NEXT!!  DON'T YOU REMEMBER YOU SAID YOU'D CALL ME BACK... THREE WEEKS AGO?!".  Instead, I was super nice, full well knowing that I may need her to help me out with an ultrasound and/or blood draw at some point in the future.

And truthfully, I do still love my local RE.  But, I just can't help feeling like she dropped the ball and didn't call me back simply because she heard that I faxed a request for my records to be sent to Colorado.  Even more frustrating is that she knew we were considering CCRM.  She knew we had a phone consult with Dr. S over six months ago and that this option has been on our minds ever since.

Oh well.

4.  My local RE's formal recommendation is for me to do another FET (same protocol as last time... you know, the last time... that resulted in my FIFTH failure!) with the two frozen embryos I have here, in their lab.  If that doesn't work, go through another full IVF cycle and do genetic screening on the embryos that we get.  Funny, because this is exactly one of the reasons we're going to CCRM - for one of the best labs and embryologists in the nation. 

5.  We definitely made the right choice in deciding to go to CCRM.  Definitely.

6.  That I really need to look into the Beta 3 integrin test.  It's on my list of things to research and to talk to Dr. S about.  Is my biggest issue really my high FSH?  Could it be something else??

7.  That I've been blessed in this awful journey of infertility to have found each and every one of you.  Really.  Knowing that I can reach out to my blog friends for advice and support is so comforting.  I'm so thankful for all of you!

And last, but most certainly not least...

8.  My little puppy is the best snuggler in the whole entire world.  She was by my side all day yesterday and my heart was so full.

10 comments:

nogoodeggs said...

excellent! even though this interaction with your doc kind of sucks, it gave you what you needed - confidence that going to CCRM is the best next step for you! Maybe they will have the same advice and maybe not, but atleast you are now totally open to their ideas and input!

This migth be totally off the wall, but have you ever read of anyone doing a cycle where they transfer a combo on embryos (like frozen and fresh? or frozen own and fresh donor?) I was just thinking that that could be an option because I imagine you will want to use your last two. Cant wait to hear what CCRM has to say! Crossing everything for you!

Amanda Greavu said...

I'm really glad you're feeling good about your decision to go to CCRM! I think it's an excellent next move! I would be AWFUL at handling the relationship with my doctor after requesting my records be faxed elsewhere. I'm impressed you handled it so well! Hoping that you can get some answers soon!

the blogivers said...

Ahh, I hate the dynamics when "switching" doctors or getting second opinions :( It shouldn't be so awkward in your case since she knows your history and knows you were already considering it! Hopefully any future interactions with her will be less strained.

I've said it before but I'll say it again: glad you have your sweet little pup to comfort you on this journey! My dogs sure are a couple of pains in the butt, but they are always there for me when I'm sad :)

Suzanne @ Our Journey to a Baby Bump said...

So glad that you are so close to your appointment at CCRM and are at peace with your decision to move forward. This will be a good thing for you. Maybe we'll pass in the hallway at CCRM in the coming months. ;)

That pup is the cutest. Love that sweet little face. Don't know what I'd do without my furry snugglers. They are simply the best!

JenS said...

I find it hard to believe you are your RE's first patient to seek a 2nd opinion or move on to another clinic. It's really weird she seems so offended by it. Sounds like you handled it well, though. The most important thing is that you are happy and comfortable with your next steps.

Aramis said...

It's so frustrating dealing with clinic screwups when you're already emotional and on-edge because of what we're going through. Hopefully everything gets straightened out for you, and glad that things are moving forward for CCRM!

Ashley said...

Ugh that is soo frustrating! Luckily mine is willing to bring in others to get the bet result!! They should all be lie that!! They should be passionate and understanding, because after all we are the ones in the vulnerable situation!! Hoping all ones well with the new RE!!

JoJo said...

I am so excited that your appointment is almost here. Eventhough they are making things awkward at your local RE clinic seems like they are sending your info to CCRM in a timely manner. It does seem like your RE got a bit offended dont see why she should. After all your are the one going through this and she did everything she could to try to help. She should have wished you luck and said she hopes this is what brings you your miracle baby.

dspence said...

What a cutie!!! Hoping you have an amazing experience at CCRM!

Amber said...

It really shouldn't be that shocking to your local RE that you are seeking a second opinion. Not if you've already had FIVE cycles with her! Good luck as you move forward with CCRM.

 
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