Wednesday, December 4, 2013

My Miracles

I apologize for falling off the face of the blogosphere for the past couple of weeks... It's been crazy.  Beautifully and miraculously crazy.  Yesterday morning was my first ultrasound and that's when we got our first glimpse at our babies... yes, babies... we are having twins!  

It's not even possible to express in writing what my feelings are since learning this news.  My heart hasn't felt such happiness in years.  It's hard to believe this is real.  I don't think it has really even sunk in just yet.  

Of course, along with the happiness comes the fear and the worry.  But I'm trying to focus on everything but those feelings.  For so long I've focused on the negative and what I didn't have that I owe it to myself to enjoy this, for all that it is... for the two miracles that, my goodness, I already love with all of my being.

The symptom of severe nausea kicked in full force on Thanksgiving Day (I wasn't able to eat my mom's turkey dinner but instead laid on the couch never so happy and thankful to be missing out on a holiday meal).  I've battled the up-all-night and all day dry heaving until today, when I finally called my OB, who prescribed zofran.  One pill in and I already feel like a different person.  

And as I write about my first real symptom of pregnancy, it's important to make note here that I'm not sure where this blog will take me at this point in time.  My heart is with so many of you who are reading, and to be honest, I'm not sure I ever intended to write beyond my infertility journey.  I also know that I have a very, very long way to go to the day (God willing) that I will take home two healthy babies. 

God is so good.  And miracles do happen... I promise you... here are mine:

52 comments:

Amber said...

Wonderful! I've been waiting (im)patiently for this post! I really, really hope that you continue to blog, but that is my own selfish wants because you've found a special place in my heart and I want to continue following your story through pregnancy and into parenthood! With twins! I know what it feels like to be excited and petrified all at once. Congratulations to you and Nick. I am so very happy for you!!!

Anonymous said...

Ahhhhh!!!! I knew it! Ccrm is an amazing place isn't it!?!? I had twins from my first round of ivf there. Get a book called "when you're expecting twins, triplets and multiples" by Dr. Barbara Luke. I attribute the advice from the book to carrying my twins to 37 weeks


Also keep the blog going - we want to hear about your pregnancy!!

Erika said...

Eeeeeek!!!! Yaaaaay for twins!! So awesome!! And I REALLY will be super sad if you stop blogging!! Don't even think about it!!

Risa said...

Aubrey, I have not been able to catch up with my blog commenting in forever. I am over the moon for you! Seriously girl, your journey has been nothing short of inspiring. I am hoping and praying my absolute hardest that these little tiny babies continue to grow and thrive. On a sidenote, I'm really glad that your OB gave you some Zofran and you are feeling better. Cheers to you!

Amanda said...

Eeeeek!!!! Yayyyyyy! I'm so, so, so excited for you Aubrey! I've been busting to tell everybody the wonderful news! Love you so much, sweet friend!

And ditto what Erika said... Don't even think about it!

Aramis said...

I'm so happy for you, Aubrey. You've been through a lot and it's so good to see you where you are right now.

wherethebleepisourstork said...

Aubrey! I have been waiting for this update! I am so glad to hear all is well! Hugs, my dear, sweet friend!

the blogivers said...

This post and those pictures gave me goosebumps! Miracles indeed :) Couldn't be happier for someone as deserving as you, friend!!!

Anonymous said...

So excited for you! Twins! Twice the fun :)

Don't stop blogging! We want bump updates!

Katy said...

I found your blog through a friend and have been reading for a long time....CONGRATULATIONS! I cried when I heard the news and cried again reading this post. PLEASE do not stop blogging!! I want to be able to follow you through this crazy, awesome adventure!!

Ashley said...

Twins!!! Amazing!! Soo happy for you guys!!! Hopefully you feel better soon!!

Melissa said...

TWINS! I just teared up a little. I am SO happy for you! You deserve this, so much, and it's so nice to see someone who has been through hell with infertility be blessed in this way!

PLEASE don't stop blogging. I will be so sad! Want to see you go through your pregnancy & deliver two healthy babies! Want to keep up with you!!

Want to hear about you telling your family! And how long have you known it's twins?!

I finally saw the RE this Monday. And i really like him. So does my hubby. Hopeful!

kharini said...

Amazing news Aubrey!!! What a dream you are living!

JoJo said...

Yay! I'm truly glad u are having twins. After all you've endured u need these two miracles. I will keep praying for u and the babies. Don't even think about leaving us all out of ur pregnancy journey.

Anonymous said...

Hi Aubrey,

Congratulations on your awesome news!!!! So happy for you and your husband!!

I know the fear and worry that creeps in after the arduous journey it took to get here. Hoping and praying that each appointment and milestone achieved will chip away the fear and be replaced by hope and happiness as you become steps closer towards bringing your miracle babies home!!

Looking forward to following you on your path to parenthood!! =0)

Helen

jenn said...

Oh wow, I am so so excited for you and this absolutely fabulous news.

TheJourneyToThree said...

So happy for you Aubrey! And Twins, wow! I have only started blogging and following your blogs recently, but love it when you write. Please do keep going...

JenS said...

Twins! Welcome to the club. Sorry you also got the nausea to go with it. I took zofran, as well, but I'm not sure it helped me much (or maybe it did and without it I would have been puking).
I am so excited for you.

Jennifer Juniper said...

Congratulations!!!! That's so amazing!! Yay twins!!

Kimberly Q said...

So so so so happy for you!!!

Monique Grattan said...

This is so awesome. Really I am so happy for you. I hope you have a easy/no drama pregnancy! Wow TWINS!!! BEST wishes.

Well-intentioned said...

OMG!! TWINS!! That is amazing!! Congratulations!!!

dspence said...

SO happy for you! Congratulations!

bellehavendrive said...

TWINS! Oh Aubrey, this is fantastic!!! You so deserve this girl. I'm so thrilled for you! xoxo

Mrs. Lost said...

Amazing!! I'm so excited for you! And I'm sorry but you are not allowed to stop blogging. So there. :)

The Run Away Stork said...

So happy for you and the news of your miracles! You give the rest of us hope and I'm so happy that you stuck with it and followed your heart. Best of luck with the pregnancy - prayers to you and the babies!

Sarah said...

TWINKS! So exciting. And glad you got some meds for the sickness!

Mrs. Lost said...

How far along are you?

rainbeforerainbow said...

Look at those adorable babies! I'm so glad the ultrasound went well. I hope you choose to keep blogging. I'd love to read about your pregnancy and your early adventures with twins!!

Elisha Kearns said...

hip hip hoooray!! Congrats on twins! Everything will be fabulous! Just keep speaking ONLY positive words for there is power in our tongue (proverbs 18:21). I'm so excited for you girl and I think you should still blog. Your blogs can be a reminder to me of the faithfulness and mercy of God.

Kandie Walker said...

Oh I am so happy for you!!! My eyes are filling with tears as I type. EEEKK!! So exciting! Praying for a healthy pregnancy!!

Suzanne said...

I look at your blog title in a whole new light now. 2 hearts...sweet Aubrey you do not even know how happy I am that your dream is coming true. Congrats a gazillion times over to you and Nick.

I also want you to know after a rough holiday how much it meant to come home and get your card. Words can not express what that meant to me. xoxo

jAllen said...

I had the feeling it would be twins! Congrats on being blessed x 2!

Caroline said...

Love this update girl!!! Yay for TWINS!!! Double the blessing!! What a sweet gift from the Lord. Celebrating with you down in TX! Love ya!

Amanda said...

Congratulations!!! As a fellow twin mommy, welcome to the club. =) Enjoy each and every second, even the trying ones.

Anonymous said...

I knew it! I told you so last time I commented on your blog. The same thing happened to me. I'm pregnant with twins. Two beautiful boys. Let me know if you have any questions or concerns. I hope I can help;)
Julia

Em said...

And what BEAUTIFUL miracles they are!!! How exciting, Aubrey! I couldn't possibly be more happy for you.

Miss Kari said...

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! What a blessing! I am extremely happy for you! This gives me hope just as I'm sure it does several other "fertility challenged" bloggers.

I look forward to following the remainder of your journey! Congrats on your beautiful miracles!!

Emily Erin said...

So happy to hear this wonderful news! Congratulations, and I'm so glad that the Zofran helped; I had a friend who had twins and joked about naming them Zoe and Fran (unfortunately/fortunately for them, they were both boys, so she nixed that idea). Celebrating and praying for you!

Sally said...

Been waiting for this news!!!!!! YAYYYYYY!!!!!

Bren38 said...

YAY! I've been waiting for this post! So excited for you and your hubby. You give us all hope! I agree with everyone you can't stop blogging now! :-)

shay said...

omg! omg! omg! I am SO SO excited and happy for you! That's so amazing! I'll be praying for you for a very healthy pregnancy.

And I really hope you continue blogging and documenting your journey!

Anonymous said...

Wow, such amazing news! So happy for you. Please continue to blog, love happy outcomes and would love to see updates of your TWINS!

conceptionallychallenged said...

Congratulations! I'm so happy you had such a great ultrasound. Hoping that everything goes well.

Nikki Miller said...

CONGRATS! So excited for you guys. Sorry for the belated comment! Hope the zofran is helping.

Anonymous said...

Praise God! I'm so happy for you! IVF pregnancies are so tough - we're so guarded and cautious and it's so so difficult to just let go and enjoy the ride. But do your best to just embrace it. You've come so far and have seen two heartbeats. That's a really really good start and I have a feeling this story will have a very happy ending!

Bren said...

YESsss!!! I am fist pumping for you from afar. This makes my heart so happy! Congratulations!!! And don't even think about not blogging anymore, now you have to blog double time!

Jessah @ Dreaming of Dimples said...

What a beautiful picture and an amazing blessing! I had so much hope and faith for your happy ending an you're on your my friend. It will really be a pain in your rear if you don't blog because I'll stalk you all the time via email for updates on your babes and pics. And then, well, you might as well just put them on your blog. ;)

lamentingthelentil said...

This community is amazing, isn't it?

I initially missed your pregnancy announcement, because I was staying at my in-law's, who live in a place where THERE IS NO INTERNET ACCESS. The horror, right!?

But I am so, so excited to come back and find this. So many congratulations. And better yet. TWO BABIES. Twins. Welcome to the club, sisterfriend. I can't wait to watch you (and them) grow!!!!! I just posted about a thousand bump photos. I googled the heck out of "twin bumps" when I first learned I was having two, and I've never tired of looking at them!

Congrats again. We all know deserving has nothing to do with this, so I won't bother saying you deserve this (even though you do). :)

xo!

Darcie K said...

EEKKK!!!! I'm so behind on my blog comments. I read this and literally did a fist pump a few days back on my phone. But, commenting from my phone is a nightmare!
ANWAYS....CONGRATS! TWINS! I'm so so soooooo happy for you!

Holly Olsen said...

Congrats!!! It's always encouraging and brings hope to hear about miracle stories like this one. Praying for a healthy pregnancy. Enjoy and God bless!

Emily said...

Sorry I'm late to comment, but wow big congrats on twins! Look at that... They already look like real babies and everything! Just so amazing! So happy for you. :)

 
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