Re-Group & a Plan!

I had my re-group with my doctor yesteday afternoon and I have a plan!  Well, a tentative one at least...

I guess I didn't really expect it to be anything more than it was.  Our conversation was all of ten minutes.  I didn't have many questions - I mean, I know what my results are.  I know that I'm a poor responder, that I have a high FSH and a low AMH, that I have DOR and that my chances are less than lots of other women.  I'd be lying if I said that the words 'donor eggs' didn't come out of my doctor's mouth.  They did.  But, I expected that.  I know that donor eggs is a wonderful option that I may need to look into at some point down the road.  But, not right now.  I'm not ready to give up on my own eggs knowing that I do in fact have a chance.  Because, I do have one - a chance, that is.  This time, my doctor didn't give me a perentage of success with IVF with my own eggs, but he did say that with having seven or so resting follicles, it's absolutely worth a shot.  I could be, as he said, 'the exception to the rule'.  I will begin my IVF cycle with CCRM with a month of priming/prep.  I will then be on a very aggressive (their strongest) protocol and to quote my doctor, they'll be "throwing the kitchen sink" at me.  The CCS genetic testing will be crucial.  But again, these are all things I already know.  Our call was a formality... A formality to get me to the next step in this process.

I immediately called my nurse after hanging up with the doctor.  She called me back right away and let me know that if we get things started with my next cycle at the end of May, that we'd be looking at a retrieval date of mid-July.  Ahhhh!  Getting that news was exciting - and then getting my tentative IVF calendar was even more exciting!  The only drawback here is that the first two weeks in July are the absolute worst two weeks for Nick because of his work schedule.  After going back and forth on whether or not to push everything back a month, we (quickly) decided to put ourselves first.  If my Mom or sister (who so graciously offered to hang out with me for the first few days in Denver before Nick is needed - thanks guys!) need to accompany me, then so be it!  A lot of love and support is already going into our hopefully miracle baby's life :) (ugh, that's being too positive, huh?).  At any rate, things are moving along.  I feel somewhat accomplished in just having gotten to this point!  I've quickly learned that there's nothing quick about cycling with CCRM - it's a long and drawn out process, but boy do they cross their "t's" and dot their "i's".  I just pray that this is all worth it.  Sigh...

So, with that, I now wait (yet again) for my next cycle to start.  Obviously, it'd be great if it didn't start... but if it does, at least I have a plan.  And a calendar :)