Tuesday, January 14, 2014

An Update on Me and My Little Guys

Well, I'm 12w5d today.  I'm still nauseous and still pukey but I'm still beyond overjoyed at this amazing and miraculous blessing that has finally made its way into my life.  But, it has been, well... weird, though.  I'm still finding that there's a fine line between going from infertility to 'hello world, I'm pregnant!'.  I feel a little stuck, almost as if I'm not really sure of my place or where I fall anymore. 

Transitioning care from an RE to an OB has nearly rocked my world.  What do you mean I can eat chocolate and have a cup of decaf coffee if I want?  I can really exercise?  Take a not-too-hot bath?  What?!  I feel like that's not possible, not for me.  I feel like shaking my OB and saying don't you know what I had to go through to get here?!  Of course she does.  She's read my file.  We've talked.  She knows and understands, but she also says that's in the past and according to her, I'm a normal person carrying twins now.  Gulp.

Transitioning care from an RE to an OB has also been... sad.  Don't get me wrong, I would thank my lucky stars if I never, ever have to step foot in an RE's office again.  I mean, this was my goal all along.  But, CCRM... Wow.  I just love every single person there who has become a part of my journey.  From the receptionists to the phlebotomists and from my genius doctor to my nurse, who is like an angel to me, I couldn't have asked for better care during such a depressing, sad and scary time in my life.  Today, as I spoke with my nurse for the last time, and as she congratulated me on my official graduation from CCRM to my OB's practice, I had a little lump in my throat.  How did I get here?  Me?!  I'm pregnant with two babies.  Is this real life?!  It can't be!  I'm dreaming...

But it is real life, I am living my dream and I am really trying to enjoy this.  Even the multiple trips to the bathroom while I'm hugging the toilet.  It's something that I may never experience again.  It's something that I fought so hard for.  Something that I pray every night will bless my friends who are still in the midst of all of the heartache and pain that infertility causes.

And do you want to know something that made this all that much more real today?  My babies... well... they are:

BOTH BOYS!!!!
 
My heart swells thinking of trucks and planes and sports and all things boy!  I love my little guys oh so much already and am so, so, so incredibly blessed with these two sweet little miracles. 
 
CCRM was able to tell me the genders based on our CCS genetic testing results.
 
Baby A - 12 wks

Baby B - 12 wks

P.S. Belle is thrilled that she will still be our little Princess!

39 comments:

Sarah said...

BOYS!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!! So excited for you Aubrey. Two boys would be my ideal if I ever had twinks! Hopefully the toilet hugging subsides soon for you, but you are right, it's completely worth it. Can't wait to see some bump pics!

Infertile625 said...

Congrats on your little men! and graduation!!

Amanda said...

Holy freak out! I forgot about gender reveal through CCS... that's CRAZY! Cray-zy!

But let's talk about this vomiting nonsense... it's REALLY time for that to be over. When is the "official" second trimester? Isn't this supposed to end, like now? Aren't you supposed to glow, and grow beautiful shiny hair and long fingernails? Puking seems like a poor substitute for all of that! : )

Also, I want a bump photo!

Stephanie said...

I am BEYOND excited for you! It is so awesome that you are having twins! How exciting that they are both boys! :) I'm sorry that you are sad from having to leave the RE's office. I will be sad as well when my time comes. :(

Miss Kari said...

Yay!!! How exciting to hear you have graduated to the OB and you have 2 precious little guys on the way. What a blessing.... what an answered prayer, right?! So over the moon excited for you!

kharini said...

2 boys!! That is awesome! Congratulations, hope you'll be better soon and I'm glad you have had an amazing experience at CCRM.

Mary said...
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Mary said...

Oh Joy Oh Joy, Two Baby Boys 💙💙

Nana and Papa Love You Both So Much Already !!!

the blogivers said...

Again, I am so very excited for you guys!!! Those boys had better be super sweet to their mama when they come out into the real world after all they've put you through :) And it is always insane to me when I see 12 week sonogram pics at how much they look like BABIES when they were just little blobs not that long ago! God is so good.

Anonymous said...

So excited for an update! So happy to hear things are going as they should!

dspence said...

Congratulations!!

Jessah @ Dreaming of Dimples said...

Oh my sweet friend…I'm so happy for you! This is such fun, wonderful news. Congrats on your beautiful, bouncing baby boys!!!

BTW….my friend that was cycling with you at CCRM…two girls!! ;)

JoJo said...

I was actually thinking of when you will update us today. Glad to see things are going well except the whole still feeling sick thing. Hey! At least it's a reassurance things are still going strong. Yup by the look of those beautifully shaped kiddos in the u/s looks like boys to me. Congrats woman!

Aramis said...

I'm so happy to read an update from you, and can't believe how fast all of this is going already. Boys! Team penis!! Woot!

Kimberly Q said...

Oh my god!! I'm so excited for you!! This does make it seem so much more real!

Christen said...

Awww... so exciting!!!! Keep us filled in!!!

Melissa said...

Aw! That is so exciting! Congratulations!

Ashley said...

Thanks for being so positive about CCRM. I read a blog yesterday where this girl went on and on about how much they suck.....someone who couldn't be happy no matter what. I get so sick of the complaining people do on their blogs about how the red carpet is not rolled out just for them. Sorry, now I am the one doing the complaining!
Boys.....will make life interesting for sure!

jAllen said...

So excited for you! love getting these updates!

Anonymous said...

So exciting! Two boys, wow. I know the feeling of being in the in between stage. I had to practice saying "I'm pregnant" in the mirror.

Ashley said...

Isn't it such a weird feeling graduating?? I never thought my days at the fertility clinic would end!! Although we have stopped back in to drop off thank card and Christmas treats and each time I saw my doctor, nurses, etc. and it was such a more welcoming atmosphere instead of fear of the unknown. They have made us promise to bring the baby back in to meet them! So, yes I did feel the same feelings, especially come my last day with them!

Boys!!! Oh my goodness the fun you are going to have!!! How can they tell soo early??

I still felt overly cautious, as far as exercising and bathing went. I would do light exercise and just shower, not sure why, I guess the fear stuck haha.

Congrats Mama!! You are almost jn the second trimester!!

Mrs. Lost said...

HOW EXCITING!! We didn't do any testing so I won't find out what my twins are until later on. They are such a blessing! Brothers!! It is going to be an amazing journey for you and your husband and you deserve every second of it friend!

Emily said...

Yay for a couple of mama's boys!

And wow, you are allowed to eat chocolate and take baths now?! GASP! You really must be a normal pregnant woman now!! ;)

shay said...

awwwwwwww, 2 boys!!! soooo cute! so so happy for you guys! try to enjoy the process as much as you can!

gypsymamasjourney said...

2 boys! congratulations!!!! It is a weird feeling going from an RE to an OB, I agree. Glad to hear an update from you, Congratulations again!! xo

Monique Grattan said...

TWO BOYS?!? That is totally awesome! Enjoy your pregnancy...morning sickness and all!

Janet Off Kilter said...

Two boys...how exciting!!! I am thrilled for you! Sending much love your way!

Caroline said...

I love this!! Congrats girl! Bring on the blue. I always love seeing your updates. I hope to see a bump picture soon!!!!!! xoxoxo

Sally said...

BOYS!!!!! You will love being a boy mama!!! Little Mama's Boys are the sweetest things!!! I am so so SO happy for your dream to be finally becoming reality!!!

Anonymous said...

aaaaaahhhhhh!!!! Congratulations Aubrey!! How exciting!!

I am having two boys as well!! It was pretty clear on our last ultrasound at 18.5 weeks, but will have it confirmed 100% at our anatomy scan.

Everything you wrote about going from RE office to regular OB office is something I can completely relate to. I hope as the days and weeks pass by- the excitement and joy of the pregnancy would exponentially grow and grow. Congrats again!!

Helen

Erika said...

AHHHH!! I totally forgot to comment here yesterday!! BUT I am SO excited about the two boys and I've thought of you with excitement SO many times since I read this yesterday. It is so wild you can find out this early!! I mean...I guess they could have told you..when? When they transferred? So weird! Hope you start feeling better soon...and hope you start sharing bump pics soon, too!!!

JenS said...

Boys!!! Congrats!!
Hope you start to feel better soon. The constant nausea is miserable.

Darcie K said...

Two boys??? Yay for two healthy baby boys! I'm so happy for you!

I can honestly relate to SOOOO much of your post. I'm still not sure how to handle the transition from my RE's office that I LOVED to an OB's office. I'm currently switching OB's trying to find a better niche.

Congrats, again! I'm so happy for you :)

Anonymous said...

YAY!!! Congrats!!!!!!!

Kandie Walker said...

Oh my goodness! So thrilled for you!! Hoping your sickness goes away soon and you start feeling good! Can't wait to see a bump pic!

redbluebird said...

Oh, this is SO exciting!!! I'm so happy for you and your adorable little boys! They will have so much fun growing up together. :)

celena zamora said...

Omg how exciting!!!BOYS!!!Congrats. i just started my own blog you should take a look at it & add me =)

Amber said...

Congrats on two boys! Although I'm sure you would have been thrilled regardless. I am so happy for you. I love to see anyone in the IF world finally get their little ones, but Aubrey, you hold a special place in my heart and I am just so incredibly happy for you.

justagirl-Krista said...

Ok I am so late to this post and i am finally getting back to reading blogs as FET is going to be in March. Congrats on TWIN boys! I do have one question, when did CCRM tell you the gender? They wouldn't tell me the last time we did it? thanks! Krista

 
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