I knew from the very beginning that me returning to work would be in the cards for our family. It was much easier said than done during the years that we were trying to conceive. Then it happened - I got pregnant (!!!! Praise the Lord!!!!), and I was still OK with the fact that I knew I'd be returning to work once the boys arrived and I exhausted my leave. But when my little three pound preemies arrived, my heart started aching immediately over the thought of returning to work. Once we had a plan in place to move back to my home state (and in with my parents until we find a house of our own), I was able to put most of my worry aside. But now that October 6th is so soon upon us, I feel like I'm walking around in a giant ball of anxiety. Ahhhh!!!!
So, I ask you working moms... How do you do it?! Seriously... how do you turn your mind off from Mama to whatever your profession is? Or do you never turn off your Mama brain? And if that's the case, how do you add anything else in? I can't even imagine being able to give my job my full attention. I know it's possible... So many of you out there are doing it every day, but I just still feel like it's going to be impossible. I don't want to be away from my babies... My little boys who I fought so long and hard for, who I delivered 7 weeks early, who I already had to spend time away from when they were born and in the NICU. My.heart.aches!