Wednesday, June 4, 2014

My New Address

Wow, my how things can change SO quickly.  I am currently residing at a hospital in downtown Boston.  I had come in yesterday for a last minute OB appointment and boy am I glad I did!  After my appointment with the Hematologist last week, it was decided that I would sneak in an extra OB appointment this week just to monitor my BP, which had for whatever reason, registered high (for me) in the Hematologist's office.  So, in I went yesterday afternoon and I'm still here this morning... And I will probably still be here until I officially become a mom.

My BP was elevated yesterday, but more concerning was the amount of protein that was measured in my urine.  Apparently they normally see someone with amounts in the 0-point-something range.  Mine?  Mine came back at NINE-POINT-SOMETHING!  So with that, my OB sent me to Triage in Labor and Delivery and after several hours of monitoring I was admitted to the hospital.  I had the first of the two beta methasone injections to promote the babies' lung development and I will have the second tonight.  

I slept horribly last night, which I suppose is to be expected.  All sorts of emotions are running through my heart and mind right now.  I know I'm in the best place possible for me and the babies right now, but it's still just very overwhelming.  Thank The Lord, my miracle babies are doing great, it's more Mommy's body that seems to be shutting down.  I've been reassured that nothing I did or didn't do could have caused this, but it's impossible for your mind not to wander there...

I'm praying that I can be kept safe for as long as possible so that these sweet boys can continue to grow and develop.

I will update as much and as soon as I'm able.  In the meantime, please hold us in your prayers.  

UPDATE: the thought now is that I do not  have ITP.  Rather, the doctors feel that my low platelet count is a sign of pre-eclampsia.  Thus, the goal at this point is to make it 24 hours from tonight when I have my last beta methasone injection and then schedule a possible induction for tomorrow night or Friday morning.  Everything is being played by ear at this point... We won't know until we know, which has this Type A, over emotional Mama on pins and needles.  It's highly unlikely, that even with the daily steroids, my platelets will increase enough for me to have an epidural.  So, vaginal without a spinal is what we are shooting for (God help me) with the understanding that should I need a c-section, I will be in an OR ready for general anesthesia at a moment's notice.  I can't even BEGIN to process this...

63 comments:

Amie said...

I don't even have words..wow! I will for sure be praying for you and the babies!! Praying all of you are safe and sound!

DeNae v said...

Aubrey, sweetie. I know I don't know you, but I am holding you and your sweet boys in prayer. You have done everything right. You have done everything for your sons. The road to parenthood is so different for everyone and yours is even more involved than most, but you have the heart of a mother and you will get those babies here and you will love them. I wish I could take away the second guessing. Just know you and your family are being prayed for by people all over the country.

Sarah said...

I'm sure having twins+ is just SO hard on a human body! I will be thinking of you friend and praying for the best outcome. Can't believe you could possibly be meeting these babies by the weekend!!!!!

Amanda said...

Hi Aubrey, I've been following your journey for quite some time but have never commented. I can't imagine how overwhelmed you feel--even if it is a combination of excitement and fear. You are right--you're in the best possible place for all four of you. You, Nick, and the boys are being lifted up in prayer. Hang in there!

Laurie Decker said...

Bless your heart! I have been following your blog for a while now and just think you are a doll. Everything will work out. I admire your courage and bravery.

You'll be great!

Aislinn said...

Oh goodness sweet girl, what an update! I know it's hard not to stress, but you're doing all you can for your boys. Let the doctors take care of all three of you, that's what they're there for. You're in my thoughts and I hope everything goes ok!

Amanda said...

Oh love, this is NOT the post I wanted to read today! I am SO glad that you went into the OB yesterday though... so thankful you're in the hospital and being monitored so closely! I'm praying for you pretty mama!

Marianne said...

Oh how scary!!! I'm so sorry. I had pre eclampsia also, got induced at 35w5d. The important thing is catching it! Sounds like you are in great hands. Hang in there!!

Katie Jeanne said...

Holy cow. First of all, I thank God that you went in for that extra OB check because then they were able to catch this. Second, I thank God that you are at the best place ever and they are keeping a close eye on your sweet, sweet precious boys. Third, I pray that God gives you the strength to endure these next 24 hours that are ahead of you. None of this is easy, but your blog friends, friends, and family are here to support you and be your team of prayer warriors.

We ask that God places His arms over you and protects you and the boys as you begin this labor journey. Thank you for keeping us updated. God bless you!

Amy said...

Prayers for you and the boys during this stressful time!

Kandie Walker said...

Praying for you and your boys. So glad you are where you are! Even though I wish there was a way to postpone their arrival I am still excited to see their sweet faces!

Kimberly Q said...

You are doing awesome! This is unexpected and scary but you are one of the toughest people I know!! Those steroid shots make SUCH a big difference and those boys will thrive! Hang in there and you will meet your babies soon! We can't wait to see pictures! You can do this because you are already an awesome momma to those boys!

Amy said...

Oh my gosh, good luck mom! Saying some prayers! You will do great. I have been following your journey, and actually got pregnant around the same time. Making it seem so real that this is about to happen!

Lilee said...

Yikes! That is scary. Hopefully everyone stays healthy and you can keep those babies incubating just a bit longer. Praying for a safe delivery for everyone. Thinking of you!

Ashley said...

Oh my goodness, how quickly things do change!! Praying for you!!! I had pre-eclampsia too, scary stuff, but you are in the right place and hands. Those sweet babies will be here before you know it!!! Praying for strength and labor with ease! I also pray you dont need the mag-sulphate! let me know if you have any questions!

Sally said...

Tons of prayers for you Aubrey!!!! Will be thinking of you and Nick and Camden and Austin!!! xoxoxo

Suzanne said...

Dear Aubrey, I am holding you, Austin and Camden in my heart and prayers. You're absolutely right. You're in the best place possible and they are going to take fantastic care of ALL of you. Sending you so much love...

Erika said...

Oh gosh, friend!! So glad you're safe and being cared for in the hospital...praying for you and the boys!!

Anonymous said...

Praying you for you and those little boys!

Amber said...

It wasn't very long ago that I was laying right where you are, only my water breaking was what bought my hospital ticket and then I had the pleasure of preeclampsia. I remember very clearly the fear/panic/overwhelming/excited mix of emotions. It is such a scary and exciting time all at once. I'm so glad your boys are doing well. You hang in there! I can't wait to "meet" your babies and hear how everything goes. In the meantime, I will keep you all in my prayers. You can do this Aubrey!!!!

Jen said...

I also developed pre-e with my twin pregnancy--right at the end. In fact, I had been sent home from a routine OB appt. with the "protein pee jug" test at 34.5weeks when my water broke that very night. I was already complete and ready to push when I was checked in triage, so I was rushed to the OR for a general anesthesia C-section due to my low platelet count. (I already had a C-section scheduled). It all worked out! They were only in the NICU for 9 days. You can do it!!!

dspence said...

Lord, be with Aubrey, Nick, and their boys right now. I ask that you fill Aubrey and Nick with peace, trusting in you at all times. I ask that you work in a mighty way in the boys, maturing their lungs and strengthening them for delivery. Move both babies into position so they can be born vaginally. Give Aubrey courage and strength in labor and delivery to deliver the boys vaginally without medication. Guide the doctors and nurses during this time. Make yourself known in mighty ways to all who are a part of this birth. In YOUR NAME we pray. Amen.

bellehavendrive said...

AUBREY! You are in my prayers. You are a fighter, my friend! You've got this!

rainbeforerainbow said...

You haven't done anything wrong! You're a great mom and are taking great care of your boys already. Sending lots of well wishes your way for a safe arrival for your boys and for a safe labor and delivery for you. xoxo

Kari B. said...

I am speechless. Praying for you right now, sweet girl. You are in good hands. God gave you these precious little ones 33 weeks ago and He already loves them more than you can even imagine. Not only are you in the hands of the hospital staff, God is holding you so tightly this very moment! Praying God will wrap you in His arms and give you the comfort you need at this time. Praying He will give your precious boys the strength for a safe and healthy delivery. Praying for the doctors and nurses to see you and your needs and they will use their knowledge and experience to bring your little ones into this world safely. You can do this girl! You have gone through so much just to bring your boys to your womb... you are going to hold your happy, healthy, precious babies soon.

the blogivers said...

Obviously it's no fun at all for you to be in this situation, but you can totally see God at work in the midst of it - starting maternity leave early, the hematologist being extra cautious, the last minute OB appt... just glad you are in the hospital in good hands and not at home totally in the dark about what your body was doing! If you have to deliver vaginally without pain meds, I know you can do it because you are a rockstar :) and if you have to have a C-section, then I will welcome you into the C-section club with open arms :) Praying for you!!

babystepstobump said...

Praying for you and your sweet babies Aubrey!

Holly Olsen said...

Praying for you, the boys, and your husband! You've got this girl. You are in good hands! God is in control and this did not catch him off guard! Praying for peace and strength as you prepare for delivery. Just think, soon you get to meet your sons! Many blessings to you. I've enjoyed following your story and will continue to do so.

Danielle said...

Aubrey, I've lurked on your blog for a quite a while(I found you via Suzanne). I will be thinking of you and your sweet little guys as you navigate this very unexpected part of your journey. Please know that my friend Jamie, who I met through our shared infertility struggles, also developed pre-e shortly after 30 weeks and delivered her daughter baby Evelyn at 33 weeks after close monitoring in the hospital and a healthy dose of steroids. Jamie's little nugget is now a force to be reckoned with. Your body protected those little guys for the last 33 weeks -- you'll be in great hands, and those guys will be, too. Everyone here is praying for you -- you've got an army behind you! Take good care of yourself and keep us posted as you can. You've got this!

The Run Away Stork said...

Oh sweet girl I'm sending prayers up for you and the boys! I can't imagine what you are going through right now. You are so strong though and I know God will bring all of you through this. Stay strong Mama. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

shay said...

OMG Girl! Praying so hard that you and babies will both be just fine! You can do this, look at how far you've come and hopefully you'll be holding those sweet little boys in your arms soon! And sending us lots of pictures!

Adrienne said...

You can TOTALLY do your birth without an epidural. You've got this. Two things that helped me through the most: 1.) my husband chanting "it's only a minute, it's only a minute" during intense contractions and 2.) him setting a low-pitched hum that I tried to match during contractions(rather than a high pitched cry). And there's all kinds of good stuff they can put in your IV line should you need it. ;) Best of luck, Mama.

Infertile625 said...

Praying praying praying. All of Boston's hospitals are excellent so at least you are in very good hands. Xoxo

The Jewells said...

Oh, no!! Thinking of you and your babies and praying for your family. You are strong, you can do this!!

Leslie said...

Thinking of you and your boys! Wishing you the safest and smoothest delivery route possible!! So glad you are being monitored closely!!!

Caroline said...

Praying for you Aubrey!!! I know God already has every detail worked out and trusting Him to carry you the rest of the way. Praying for supernatural peace to be released over your body as well as healing with your protein and BP levels - praying for wisdom for the doctors and nurses. Love you friend xoxo

kharini said...

My goodness Aubrey! My good friend Linda just sent me a text about this, I have not been in the blog sphere for a while but I'm here now to wish you the best in the next few days. All good thoughts and strength with you!!! xo

Trish said...

Aubrey, you got this! Hang in there. Sending lots and lots of prayers and strength for you. Take care.

Lesley said...

Prayers of peace and calmness. You are in the best place. Your boys are healthy and strong. You can do natural child birth if needed. You are about to be a momma..:)

Anonymous said...

thinking of you...
you can do this.

just keep sending that awesome momma-love to your two boys. that's all that really matters.

Been there said...

Please do what's best for you and the baby. The pain with one was unbearable I can't imagine two plus complications. Don't try to be a hero re vaginal birth without epidural. The Iv stuff barely takes the edge off. Take care.

Aramis said...

I'll be thinking of you and the babies and hoping as hard as I can that everything turns out ok! I'm sure it will...you can do this! Think of how much you've gotten through so far...this is the last of it. You've got this!

Amanda said...

Praying for you and your precious boys!!! You can do this. Take it moment by moment.
(fellow twin mommy to preemies because of pre-eclampsia)

The Joiners said...

Oh my goodness! Praying for you and those sweet baby boys!

Ashley Sanderson said...

Praying hard for you!!! I got goosebumps as I read this. I pray that your labor is smooth and you can handle the intensity of a labor without an epidural. I know you can do it! I pray for your sweet boys. That their lungs will be far more developed than the doctor's hoped and will need minimal to no NICU time. I pray for your husband as he supports you through this emotional time. It's time to meet your boys sweet momma :) I know you are going to do amazing!

Court said...

Oh no! I am sending prayers your way for an easy delivery!!!

Mrs B. said...

Aubrey I just wanted you to know I had preeclampsia and made it to 34 weeks. The steroid shots help a lot.

jAllen said...

32 weeks is still a good marker for twins! Wishing you all the best!

A Few Good Eggs said...

Aubrey, hang in there and stay positive and know that you can do this! And please, please don't for one second think this is caused by anything you did... you have done nothing but be the best mom ever. You and your boys will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Katrina said...

Best of luck to you. I've been following your journey for the last year. I too struggled with infertility and ended up getting pregnant with twin boys as well. They arrived at 31 weeks and are doing just fine now but it was all incredibly scary while it was happening. We've been home three weeks from the NICU. My prayers are with you during this time.

Emily said...

You've got this Aubrey! So glad you were in for that apt. and that you are in good hands. So excited you will be meeting your two little hunks soon. You are going to do great, and everything will be just fine! xoxo

Gypsy Mama said...

Sending you lots of positive energy to help you get through this stressful time. Like Jane said, 32 weeks is still good for twins! xo

Amy said...

You will be in my thoughts until your miracle babies enter this world. It will be the craziest, scariest most incredible experience for you and we are all behind you! Sending you love and strength and patience for the next 24 hours! A heap of love from Australia!! Xooxoxox

Emily Erin said...

Sending up prayers for you and your boys and letting you know that it *can* be done without drugs-- you're going to do great Mama. I hope that they're taking good care of you and I look forward to seeing pictures of your little miracles!

Laura said...

Aubrey, I've been terrible at commenting, but I've been following you and your pregnancy updates. I am praying like crazy for you and your boys. You definitely are in the best possible place, but it's still so scary. Just know you're in my thoughts!!

Anonymous said...

I have been reading your blog for a over a year now and love reading your updates on your pregnancy. I was sad to read your latest post, but I can tell that you are a strong, positive and faithful woman and I hope and pray that everything goes smoothly and that your precious boys are fine.

I am also pregnant with twins, fraternal girls, and am about 4 weeks behind you. Thank you for your blog, you have been a reference point for me as I read and look at your bump photos to help me anticipate what is right around the corner.

I am really hoping and praying for the best for you,

Take good care

Emily said...

I'm thinking the BEST thoughts for you, your boys, and your hubby! You have done an amazing job keeping those kids cooking for as long as you have! Hang in there!

Anonymous said...

Thinking about y'all way down here in Louisiana

JenS said...

Things really do change quickly. I remember being exactly where you are at just about the same point in my pregnancy. Very scary and overwhelming. I imagine by now you have had the babies and I can't wait to hear about them and how you are doing. Thinking of you all!

Sarah Beth said...

So many prayers being sent to you sweetness! Be strong and lean on God, for he is right there with you. Hugs from Cali!

justagirl-Krista said...

It is all very scary, even more so with the added issues you are having. I so hope all goes well and you have a safe delivery of your 2 boys! Hang in there!

Anonymous said...

my goodness, how are you all doing?

update when you can?

Kimberly Q said...

The silence is killing me!!! Update please!!!

 
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